Reasons to smile + eating naked

Tuesday 21st October '14

6:30am and my alarm went off, well that's a lovely way to start the day, I sleepily got myself ready for work and dragged myself out to the car. Oh and it's so beautiful that early in the morning! The cold now that the autumn is coming! The smell of the cold crisp air, and most of all the quietness. It's so cosy to stay in bed on those days but do try and see the outside world early in the morning - it's incredible.

Work has been okay today, I've had hot chocolate and jaffa cakes left on my desk for me, also some polishing spray! My lovely manager knows me too well, I feel so welcome there and I never actually thought that work could be that awesome!

I've been thinking a lot today about publications I've seen about mental health and people wanting to take their own lives and it just makes my heart sink, I'm not going to try and lecture anyone or tell you that you have to stay, I'm going to list so many reasons that I've found and written that will most likely make you happy and some little reasons to stick around, comment anymore that you'd add!

Here it goes - 

1. The way rain makes the world smell
2. Making someone smile
3. Going to concerts
4. Being able to say ‘I did it’
5. Being able to say ‘I won’
6. Proving all the people who said that you can’t wrong.
7. To eat new foods.
8. Progress
9. The way you feel when you finally get to bed after a long day
10. Soft blankets
11. Pets
12. Speaking to people you love
13. Family
14. Warm showers
15. Yummy food
16. Nice hugs
17. Baby animals
18. Laughing until you cry
19. Meeting Internet friends in real life
20. The way the sky looks before it rains
21. Hugging your favourite stuffed animal
22. Feeling the sun on your face
23. Visiting new places
24. Cheesy pick up lines
25. New flowers blooming in the spring
26. To find something to believe in
27. New music from your favourite bands
28. The smell and taste of fresh baked cookies
29. Hot tea on a cold day
30. getting a new piercing or tattoo
31. Snuggling with someone you love
32. Having someone say, “Because of you, I didn't give up..” 
33. Being able to say “I told you I could do it”
34. Friends you haven’t met yet
35. Eating ice cream from the tub
36. Because you’re strong enough to pull through
37. Travelling
38. Today will soon be a memory
39. Bath bombs
40. The smell of old books
41. Tomorrow may be forgotten
42. Waking up early to realise you can sleep in that day
43. Finishing school
44. Being able to be one of those people others look up to
45. Getting the good kind of butterflies in your stomach
46. Forgiveness
47. Movie marathons
48. Books yet to be read
49. Watching raindrops chase each other down windows
50. Gardening
51. Building snowmen
52. Surfing
53. Learning a new skill you’ve always wanted to have
54. Big comfy sweaters
55. Awesome new video games
56. New technology
57. Creating art
58. Perfecting your eye liner
59. Doodling
60. Being surrounded my people who love you
61. Drawing eyes that match
62. Water fights
63. Disney movies
64. Random acts of kindness
65. Sleep overs
66. Looking through old photo albums
67. Crunching Autumn Leaves
68. Not wearing pants
69. Lying naked beside someone
70. Death will wait
71. Shooting stars
72. Puzzles
73. Learning to play a new instrument
74. Listing situations you didn’t need that thing they’re making you learn in maths
75. Writing poetry
76. Visiting libraries and reading in the quiet spaces 
77. Fluffy slippers
78. Horse riding
79. Books you can’t put down
80. Learning to cook your favourite meal
81. Orgasms
82. Water colour paints
83. The smell of your favourite plants
84. Tattoos you want to get
85. All the books you haven’t read
86. Freshly cleaned bed sheets
87. Singing Disney songs
88. Drawing on steamed up windows
89. Puppies
90. Songs that make you happy
91. Cuddles with cats
92. Making other people smile
93. The cute noises that babies make
94. The look on your animals face when you come home for the day
95. Giving a little kid a present that they wanted
96. The autumn air
97. Kissing
98. Warm baths
99. Movies you used to watch as a kid
100. Talking in funny accents
101. Small victories
102. Finishing a long assignment
103. Long walks in the summer
104. Sunsets
105. Sunrises
106. The sea
107. Getting to say ‘I do'
108. Getting to watch the new series of your favourite TV show or getting to a sequel to your favourite movie
109. Listening to your favourite music
110. Daydreaming about a world you would love to live in
111. Jumping into cold water on a hot day
112. Taking a hot shower after playing in the snow.
113. Snow ball fights
114. Hot chocolate on cold days (or tea or coffee, which ever you like best)
115. Bands and artists you love but haven’t seen yet
116. The day you can get out of that town and away from these people
117. Making little kids (or other people) smile
118. Oceans you haven’t swam in
119. Adventures you haven’t gone on
120. Roasting marshmallows and setting them on fire
121. Warm blankets fresh from the dryer
122. Playing in the rain
123. Every new year when you feel like you have a new start
124. Every morning you wake up in a good mood
125. Every day you laugh at something small
126. Someone that makes you laugh
127. Anything

Anything that you feel makes you happy should be a reason to live, it's incredibly hard but you can do this!

So if you're having a crappy day please don't give up. I've not got many ideas to write about tonight and I'm sorry if this is boring! But even if you don't have the energy thats okay, it's okay disappear and come back to things later, you're existing and that's hard!

Sorry that I haven't had much to talk about to due to work, oh a bought a new shirt though! 

It's late now and I'm up early again tomorrow so wish me luck, I've been busy running errands this evening so hopefully tomorrow will also be a bit more interesting.

I wrote a little poem for the missus and I quite like it so, here it is if you wanna have a little look!

You don’t say “I love you” like any one else can. 

You say it in a way that grasps my heart. 

The soothing words lace my ears. 

It takes away any worry instantly. 

Would it be too much to say those words mean everything to me. 

If that was all you ever said, I would have no troubles at all. 

I’m overcome with warmth. 

A feeling that never leaves. 

Even in the darkest nights. 

Those words trace my mind and then everything starts to settle again. 

I love you.

You’re all I ever need.

Bird of the day time folks - Today's is going to be the Puffin! Look how cute (yeah, I do say every bird is cute, but they are!). They are renowned for being the face of Puffin Books and re the clowns of the bird world! They are actually an amber rated bird on the endangered list. Puffins eat mainly fish especially sandeels, and can be found mainly between March and April right up to the North of England, including Northumberland and Shetland and many small isles off the cost of Scotland! They're the sweetest and I just want to cuddle one!

Have a great tomorrow lovelies and catch ya later!

Urgh Monday...

Monday 20th October '14

So you all know what day it is! Happy Monday!

Well, hopefully it's happy one for you - even if you're sat there on a constant drip of coffee and losing the will to live even though you've only been awake for 5 minutes, then that's okay!
Monday isn't our friend and we need to give him a big boot up the arse. I have spent my day at work on this wonderful Monday trying to find things to inspire me to get through the day - this has consisted of playing tank trouble, looking at last minute holidays and also wedding ideas! To be honest that's a pretty good kick to want to get though the day and one more day closer to marrying my girl and travelling and even just to cuddles once I get home.

Monday can be a right bitch but sometimes as hard as it is, sucking it up is the best thing to do, it's inevitably coming around and hey once that day is out of the way then you're so much closer to the weekend and if you have to work the weekend, then yeah that's crap, but you're one day closer to a day off and a day full of Netflix and takeaways in bed! Monday would be better off spent like that I know but well, we ain't that lucky I guess. Meh.

So today was the day... I moved desks, it finally happened and it's worked out a lot better than I first thought! So long story short, to be honest, the desk I was supposed to be moving too the computer there was broken, so I was then moved to another one and oh my gosh yay, right at the back of the office, next to the window and so nice and quiet! I cannot describe how happy I am, I spent the majority of the morning cleaning it yes, but lord it was filthy! Not anymore though it's pristine! Then the panic washed over me "this isn't permanent, this is temporary" and seriously that was scary, I know that sounds stupid, I know that but it's ridiculous how pathetic I am! But along with a desk change we changed managers, and he is lovely! He brought me a can of red bull as I had just finished mine, when something was sold or done well I got high fives or hugs and he is just wonderful. I know that sounds cheesy and what not but, it's lovely to actually be praised for doing good work as apposed to it going unnoticed. Oh and he's let me stay at this desk. He is now my favourite! There's that saying isn't there, that goes "A person who feels appreciated will always do more than what is expected". Hopefully I can prove that?


So I'm maybe a litre bit too happy about such a little things, but it is the little things that matter! Oh and I did say "long story short, maybe not".

Oh and if you don't feel appreciated, then you are, even by people who don't show it, they may not know how to, but even if you don't believe that - I appreciate you, you're incredible and you are here now and even if that's a struggle, look, you're doing it!

The most important things can sometimes only be the smallest and it's important to remember those, even just taking 20 minutes in a day to sit down and read or have a cuppa, even to call your parents, or friend or family member, and tell them how crap your day was or how shitty one of your colleagues is. To just do some of those little things can be much more relaxing than just trying to hold it in and hope that it disappears, and even if you don't feel like you can talk to anyone then I'm always here!

Life really is beautiful and it can take a while to realise that, but it truly is! Please don't give up and if you're feeling not so good today, then this is your sign that someone is think about you and believes in you, yes you, you're awesome!

I'm struggling to write today and I think Monday's just drained me, well I need to up for 6:30am tomorrow morning, and the prospect of that, let's just not think about that now shall we.

Okay kids, that's enough for today I think, I'm spewing out nonsense as it is so let's not do much more!

Bird of the day today shall be... *drum roll please*
The Long Tailed Tit (shush!) - They're so cute and tiny and round and fluffy and bouncy and aah!
You'll probably always see them hopping around car parks! They are found mainly in Europe, UK and Asia! They love eating insects and also seeds in Autumn and Winter. You hardly see them on their own as they tend to stay in flocks of around 20 birds, and they're extremely noisy!

That's all darlings!
Stay safe and have a lovely day!

Speak tomorrow!

In-Between Sundays...

Sunday 19th October '14

So today in a nutshell has been wonderful!

<-- Photo today with me and the missus!

To be honest, we haven't really got upto anything special - but I guess that's the beauty of sundays really isn't it! 

From the moment I woke up this morning my thoughts have been the same all day... "yay, tomorrow is Monday". But ya know, as crap as that is - I have a whole day to just do Sunday things. Today has included a nice walk into Canterbury town centre, grabbed a Starbucks for breakfast, boy I love going to Starbucks, they are all so wonderful in there, they know my name, my usual orders, ask how my day is going at work when I'm on my lunch break and it's just really lovely. 

(Oh and a side note - as I'm in there practically everyday - I get alot of vouchers and entries to free coffee contests and lots of free tokens to spend in Starbucks - so I may start something on here to allow my readers to get their hands on some freebies! I mean if you're interested?)

But anyways - after a lovely spot of breakfast we wandered around town for a while, bought some fudge from the Fudge Kitchen - trying not to eat it all at once. Then went for a drive out to our closest beach - Whitstable, Kent, we loving going there - just to sit and watch the waves lap up over the pebbles. It's so releasing to be able to throw stones into the sea, feeling any unwanted feelings and stress go with the stones and vanish into the water. It is so wonderful to also distract me from any cleaning urges or not feeling in control which I think sometimes is why I feel the need to focus my energy on tidying up,  but hey - lot's of energy is now being focused on my writing which I love.

I guess the best thing about Sundays (besides the one's I have to work) is the balance between relaxing yet preparing for the week ahead. I like the idea of balancing, thinking about different situations and how so many different aspects need to be included to be able to resolve them. I know that's vague and scattered but that's just how I'm feeling this evening. I just like to get lost in my thoughts sometimes, I think that's the best thing that you can do. No one really knows you better than you, so make the most of that and get lost in your thoughts, go wild, be crazy - no one can judge you.

Talking of balance, Freya bought me a bracelet the other day, made up of tiny colourful stones aiming to blanche different aspects of the body - consisting of; Crown, The Third Eye, Throat, Heart, Solar Plexus, Sexual and Base. We've been really interested in Buddhism and reading into and researching the beliefs and ways of the culture. Also relaxation and mind balancing. It truly is intriguing to read into and learn about their ways. The stones in the bracelet are made up of components to balance Chakra;

• Quartz Qrystal - Overall balance of the Chakra System.
• Amethyst - It is Concerned with understanding knowledge, and mental organising.
• Sodalite - Communication, personal expression and the flow of information.
• Green Quartz - Deals with relationships and personal development.
• Citrine/ Yel Jade - Helps give self confidence and personal power.
• Hematite - It gives stability, energy distribution and survival.
• Agate - Its functions are creativity, feelings and sexual drive.

I don't really expect most of you to read this far as I'm not feeling extremely creative with my writing tonight, but if you have thank you! Have a photo of our little baby girl, Chubbs - She's our adopted hamster (nobody wanted her as she was too chubby) but we love her to pieces and her favourite thing to eat is dried sweetcorn! Look how cute her tiny feets are!

I'm not particularly looking forward to work tomorrow - I'm doing a 10am 'til 7pm shift - as great as having a little lie in is, I do prefer to do earlier shifts and finish earlier in the day but hey ho. 

I'm sat here next to a Orange, Rose and Amber candle and it's making me feel even more sleepy than before. Today is an in-between day, it's hard to relax, it's hard to get things done. But all I do know is that now it's time to play Scrabble and drink some hot chocolate and make the most of a lazy evening in!

I'm sorry for how mismatched this post it just reflects the day that I've had and how my head feels.

Be sure to keep popping back though for posts everyday, and I'm sure I'll have some funny stories to tell you from work tomorrow oh and my new team, let's hope I can settle into my new desk okay! Oh god, now I'm worried about that!

Anyway kiddos - time for my bird of the day!

I wasn't sure what bird to post today, and someone asked me on tumblr what my favourite bird was and I really struggled to answer, but one of my favourites is a Barn Owl. Oh and if you don't know my tumblr, feel free to pay it a visit - HellooHannah. Barn Owls have beautiful heart shaped faces, they are nocturnal and you will spot them mainly in wooded areas, open country fields and riverbanks, and it's best to see them at dusk! They usually feed on mice, voles and shrews. They are starting to decrease in numbers after an incline from 1995-2008, but they are now currently on the amber status on the endangered scale. 

Barn Owls are just super cute and fluffy and aah, they're beautiful! 

But that's it for now!

Hope you have a lovely evening and a good start to the new week - you can achieve anything!

See you tomorrow!

This is going to take some getting used to.

Saturday 18th October '14

So today's been a weird one... I guess a first day back at work always is. 

But hey - it's a Saturday, that means dress down and well, this selfie a day might become a thing too.

Getting settled back in at your desk - vigorously cleaning it as said desk is filthy because someone decided to sit there whilst you were away. Repeatedly again cleaning said desk as god knows who sat there/ what they did/ eew was it that weird guy who sits with his hands down his pants, oh god maybe it was him, oh lord. But anyways besides the point - I work mainly on the telephone and if my mind being pre-occupied on the dirty desk wasn't enough, I was then stumbled when it came to answering the phone... "um hi" was the first thing I blurted out before my mind automatically reverted back to "work mode" and began spewing out generic "drilled into your head and never to be forgotten" scripts that seem to spin around my head when they needn't be there but the one time they do, like a lot of things I guess, "um hi" decides to make an appearance. Aren't I such a professional!

Along with the whole desk malarkey found out today that due to a team switch over I will be moving desks... "how wonderful" was obviously my first reaction, now I had to clean that one and get it fully organised and rearranged and, no no no, it isn't next to the window! I don't know about you but the one escape from an office environment, besides standing outside with the smokers on your break, trying to disguise your spluttering at the smoke as a tickle cough, it being there to gaze out of the window as the traffic flies past and people watch as you wait for a call to come through or even to just zone out whilst people ramble on at you. You had that freedom, to just alienate yourself in an instant. But now, I have to re-establish myself, this is going to be harder than it sounds. But change is good right?

"Dear Mr Window Seat, I hope your next occupant fully appreciates your skills and abilities as much as I do, I shall glance over as I walk past you on my way into work, but I won't think too much about you as this is hard enough for both of us without any added stress. I miss you dearly, I hope life treats you well. So long - Your Once Faithful Occupier."

Wow... That went a little bit further than I imagined. So I guess I loved that window seat in all its glory, I mean the same can't be said for aeroplane seats, but let's not go into that today! For both mine and your sakes!

Besides from work today I ate spaghetti hoops, called my parents for a chat at lunch (I miss them so much, they're still up North, but I see them soon for my birthday), snuggled with the hamster and my girl, that's all you need in an evening really! Oh and Freya cleaned the entire kitchen whilst I was work, I mean if that isn't something to come home to I don't know what is, that was such a relief!

I was almost too sleepy to write this but, I guess once you stop you can't pop, no wait... In all honesty I'm knackered and I'm surprised I'm still awake! But at least I have tomorrow off work - god, it's my first day back and I already have a day off!

But hey guys, I saw this today and I loved it - because come on, some days it is so ridiculously hard to pull yourself up and out of bed, and I mean even if you don't manage to do a whole lot, you've done so well to even just accomplish the tiniest of tasks. If all you have done today is lay in bed and surf the net or read this then, hey you, I'm proud of you! 

So munchkins, even if you just do a few of those things today you have accomplished great things! Tomorrow you may manage more, or even less, but no matter how few or how little, well done.

So let's keep going as I started yesterday and here is my bird of the day - Today, say hello to the Red Kite. Look how beautiful he is! They are a bird of prey with a wingspan of around 2 meters long! That's more than my height (5' 7" if you're nosey). I have so many fond memories of going to see the Red Kites in Wales with my family on several holiday trips when I was little! They eat small animals, birds and worms. Living in primarily wooden areas, even wetlands and valleys but are rapidly declining in numbers due to habitat loss and pesticide usage. 

So there we go, another day gone.

I'll see you again tomorrow, stay safe, stay cool and most of all stay you.

Have a lovely day kiddos!

Catch you later.

I've got to start somewhere...

Friday 17th October '14. First Blog Post.

Hey There!
Welcome to my blog - Just My Daily Nonsense.

So this is nerve racking... But everyones got to start somewhere eh! So here it goes -
Oh and as you can see I tend to favour the left side of my face...

My name is Hannah, I'm currently 18 years old (soon to be 19 on November 8th! *hint hint*) I have a not so discrete obsession with birds and I'm a Northerner living in the South (of England that is)! I'm looking to start a new project and just really keep myself occupied and see how things pan out... So wish me luck eh! Oh and my hair is pink at the moment!

This blog is really just going to consist of what I get up to on a daily basis - my views, experiences, thoughts, work, what I had for lunch, how great my evening snuggles were and probably most of all living with the fact that at the moment I have such an urge to clean and my goodness it's draining! Believe me I love cleaning but sometimes I need my head to relax and realise that the dishwasher is empty and clean so there's no need to check or go back and do it again for that matter. But enough about that for now. I want you to actually come back and read this blog - not be weirded out or anything... Maybe too late.


But Hey Ho, Let me tell you about the wonderful few days that me and my fiancee have had in Durdle Door, Dorset. Freya and I currently live in Canterbury and whilst I had some time off work and University for her wasn't too busy we booked 4 nights away to stay in a beautiful little wooden pod on a breath-taking campsite about 3 hours away from us. The little pod was just the perfect size, we had so many blankets and duvets bundled up to make sure we kept warm - the cutest little porch on which many a tin of beans, or if we were feeling adventurous, spaghetti hoops were cooked. Anyways we spent our days there just reconnecting with nature, going to sleep and waking up as the sun does, distancing ourselves from technology and any unecessary stress. We went for plenty of walks and sipped on hot chocolate as we did, we visited animal shelters and sealilfe parks and many a nature reserve. We drove out to Weymouth SeaLife Centre, Blue Pool Nature Reserve, also went to see Gone Girl and Annabelle in a little local Cinema.

What I'd give to be back there now - even though it rained for a solid 48 hours during our visit, that doesn't matter, we felt calm and at peace, even though I made Freya help me clean the car after the rain, I even felt less inclined to then clean. It was in a way lovely to come back home to a memory foam mattress and warmth, but saddening I guess to then leave the calm that we had created behind. So coming back to city traffic and well, just general busyness was a pretty big shock. But I suppose we need to get away and experience different senses of life to appreciate what we have or even what we could eventually have.
Anyways back to work and back to reality tomorrow and I need to get back into a routine,  with work, gym, fun? It's harder than you were ever taught, how to juggle a balanced and worthy lifestyle, such as never learning "actual world skills" in schools etc.. - about that - I could probably do with actually getting into more of a routine, now I'm going off on a tangent but long story short - how do I structure my life enough so that I actually get things done but then on the other hand not be too regimented, let's hope I figure that out sooner rather than later...

But back to reality now I guess - I'm sat in bed waiting to watch Family Guy and trying to stop myself from going to wipe down the kitchen and the bathroom again (but hey - we bought some "Christmas Winter Spiced" anti-bacterial wipes today, I don't think that's helped the matter as they smell SO good!) so this is Good Night from me!

I know this must be a terrible first blog post - but please do come back, I do plan on becoming more interesting!

Stay safe and have a great day!



Oh and just before I go - Like I said earlier I'm obsessed with birds so at the end of every post I'm going to post a little photo and description of a bird - feel free to scroll past, but I just want to pass on a passion that I have and hope that others maybe smile at it.

This is a Blue Tit - They're only about 12cm in size and are widely distruibuted around the UK, Europe, Moscow and even North Africa. They're amongst the commonest of tits (hehe, shush) and can live upto 15 years! They are distinguished by a bright blue head (crown) with white cheeks and a yellow underbelly and can often be seen on garden feeders snacking on nuts, seeds, fruit and insects.

'Til next time!